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==== Coming Up - 10:45 - 11:30 PM ====
==== Coming Up - 10:45 - 11:30 PM ====
Mental fog and mild sedation intensifies, as does the euphoria, cognitive euphoria stronger than the physical euphoria. At times I feel foggy and minutes later, I feel like I have a flight of ideas and thoughts. Visuals become evident; some mild drifting, pattern recognition enhancement, acuity enhancement, and a soft sense of altered perspective. My sight started having a gentle, green tint to it. I was on the phone with my friend at the time (he was essentially a temporary sitter but I was alone through most of this). I still felt fairly clear headed and '''I assumed the peak had been reached.''' I smoked 0.13 g of cannabis (about 3 one hitter hits every 10 minutes) this intensified all the effects mentioned in the beginning of this paragraph.
Mental fog and mild sedation intensifies, as does the euphoria, cognitive euphoria stronger than the physical euphoria. At times I feel foggy and minutes later, I feel like I have a flight of ideas and thoughts. Visuals become evident; some mild drifting, pattern recognition enhancement, acuity enhancement, and a soft sense of altered perspective. My sight started having a gentle, green tint to it. I was on the phone with my friend at the time (he was essentially a temporary sitter but I was alone through most of this). I laughed at almost anything he said. I still felt fairly clear headed and '''I assumed the peak had been reached.''' I smoked 0.13 g of cannabis (about 3 one hitter hits every 10 minutes) this intensified all the effects mentioned in the beginning of this paragraph.


==== Peak Actually Begins -  ~12:00 AM ====
==== Peak Actually Begins -  ~12:00 AM ====
Up until now, no anxiety, but that changed. My friend went to bed, so now I decide to watch a cartoon, for I thought the trip was starting to end. Only a minute in, it seemed as if I wore 3D glasses. The characters seemed quite close, the backgrounds far. I found this amusing, until I realize how emotional I was. The cartoon easily triggered negative emotions. I pause it and stand up slowly. I felt SO COLD, yet the thermometer read only 67 degrees Fahrenheit. I start having feelings of apprehension and I shake and shiver. Time seemed to grind to a halt. My vision no longer acute but now more hazy like dust and smoke polluted the air. I notice my door is getting unusually far away and quite tall. It returned to normal size upon close inspection. The blinds had transparent, yet obvious, colorful geometric shapes red, blue, green, and yellow smoothly, slowly gliding across it, shapes were all diamond and circle overlapping (two shapes into one). All objects shifted and morphed in and out slowly but realistically, like breathing but far more widespread, as if everything were semi-gelatinous.
Up until now, no anxiety, but that changed. My friend went to bed, so now I decide to watch a cartoon, for I thought the trip was starting to end. Only a minute in, it seemed as if I wore 3D glasses. The characters seemed quite close, the backgrounds far. I found this amusing, until I realize how emotional I was. The cartoon easily triggered negative emotions. I pause it and stand up slowly. I felt SO COLD, yet the thermometer read only 67 degrees Fahrenheit. I start having feelings of apprehension and I shake and shiver. Time seemed to grind to a halt. My vision no longer acute but now more hazy like dust and smoke polluted the air. I notice my door is getting unusually far away and quite tall. It returned to normal size upon close inspection. The blinds had transparent, yet obvious, colorful geometric shapes red, blue, green, and yellow smoothly, slowly gliding across it, shapes were all diamond and circle overlapping (two shapes into one). All objects shifted and morphed in and out slowly but realistically, like breathing but far more widespread, as if everything were semi-gelatinous. This drifting made the room seem like it was slowly changing size as if I were getting smaller.


The thought consumed me "I am having a bad trip!", anxiety was intense, I sweat and shake. I struggle to put on calming music. Then I remembered something I wrote down in preparation of the trip, from my own research. I reminded myself of my intention: "I want to feel connected with myself, learn more about myself, improve." This eased the anxiety somewhat. With a deep breath, I say aloud, "Can I just surrender right now? Can I just let go? I need to just flow downstream." The shaking ceased, I take another deep breath, "Why?" I say, "Why am I afraid? Why do I fear what I don't expect?" My pain eases even more, and I get a profound feeling that something major has been addressed and needs to be dealt with.  
The thought consumed me "I am having a bad trip!", anxiety was intense, I sweat and shake. I struggle to put on calming music. Then I remembered something I wrote down in preparation of the trip, from my own research. I reminded myself of my intention: "I want to feel connected with myself, learn more about myself, improve." This eased the anxiety somewhat. With a deep breath, I say aloud, "Can I just surrender right now? Can I just let go? I need to just flow downstream." The shaking ceased, I take another deep breath, "Why?" I say, "Why am I afraid? Why do I fear what I don't expect?" My pain eases even more, and I get a profound feeling that something major has been addressed and needs to be dealt with.  
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I felt very rested despite getting less sleep than usual. The profound feeling has not lingered very strongly (perhaps due to low dose) but there is a defined afterglow to say the very least. I am glad I had this experience, and I would do it all over again, even if it were only conquering anxiety, because it was magical.
I felt very rested despite getting less sleep than usual. The profound feeling has not lingered very strongly (perhaps due to low dose) but there is a defined afterglow to say the very least. I am glad I had this experience, and I would do it all over again, even if it were only conquering anxiety, because it was magical.


= Effects Analysis =
=== Physical Effects ===
* [[Physical euphoria]]
* [[Sedation]]
* [[Temperature regulation suppression]]
* [[Appetite suppression]]
* [[Changes in felt bodily form]]
=== Cognitive Effects ===
* [[Cognitive euphoria]]
* [[Confusion]]
* [[Laughter fits]]
* [[Anxiety]]
* [[Feelings of impending doom]]
* [[Anxiety suppression]]
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