Experience:MDMA (750mg, Oral) - Finally Free: Difference between revisions

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'''FRIDAY:'''

Around midnight on ~~Friday,~~ a friend and I decide to take some MDMA (orally) - roughly 150mg each. Within an hour the walls of my bathroom are melting and sparkling at the same time. This is the first time I'd experienced visuals from MDMA, and it just seemed like a happier, brighter version of what I've experienced with LSD previously. Visuals last for a few hours and I decide to hold off on taking any LSD because I'm already experiencing some. The night goes on into the day and all throughout we both continue to ride the MDMA high (sans visuals) with 50-75mg every 4 hours or so until midnight of Saturday rolls around. I talk to my brother all day Friday about the guilt and remorse I feel from our mother passing away many years ago and he tells me to spread some of her ashes and let go of the guilt - I take his advice as he's recently has his own revelations brought on by psychedelic usage. I spread her ashes that evening all around my house, set my intention and prepared myself to face ..well, myself.

Around midnight on Thursday a friend and I decide to take some MDMA (orally) - roughly 150mg each. Within an hour the walls of my bathroom are melting and sparkling at the same time. This is the first time I'd experienced visuals from MDMA, and it just seemed like a happier, brighter version of what I've experienced with LSD previously. Visuals last for a few hours and I decide to hold off on taking any LSD because I'm already experiencing some. The night goes on into the day and all throughout we both continue to ride the MDMA high (sans visuals) with 50-75mg every 4 hours or so until midnight of Saturday rolls around. I talk to my brother all day Friday about the guilt and remorse I feel from our mother passing away many years ago and he tells me to spread some of her ashes and let go of the guilt - I take his advice as he's recently has his own revelations brought on by psychedelic usage. I spread her ashes that evening all around my house, set my intention and prepared myself to face ..well, myself.

'''SATURDAY:'''

At this point, between my friend and I, we have consumed around 500mg of MDMA each throughout the previous day and I'm ready for another big boost in hopes of achieving more visuals. At roughly 1145PM, we both take 125mg each and while we wait for it to take effect, we share a very large joint that's had the rolling paper soaked in concentrate. We enjoy that for 15 minutes or so and put it out halfway. As soon as we finish, we both take ~~500ug~~ of LSD orally and let it dissolve under our tongues. Around 1245 the MDMA is coming on but the LSD does not feel like it's quite there yet and it usually has by now. For whatever reason, we decide another 100ug is in order - down the hatch. Around 1AM the MDMA and LSD are both very much taking effect. I stare at myself in the bathroom watching the shadows contort over my flesh: they go wherever they want now. After 10 minutes of staring at myself in the bathroom I get bored with it and return to my room, sit down at my PC and start playing some music another very close friend of mine recommended earlier that day (Cigarettes After Sex, amongst others) for my friend and I to enjoy during our trip. At this point (around 2/230AM) I'm so warped from all of the MDMA, THC, and LSD and in such a good mood I'd completely forgotten my intention but it hadn't forgotten me. Negativity creeps into me for a moment but before I can give it a second thought, I forget it.. I try hard to remember what harm I was attempting to bring to myself but I just can't manage to do so and instead of dwelling like I usually would, I let it go and feel a sense of forgiveness briefly. It exhilarates me. It fills me with determination.

At this point, between my friend and I, we have consumed around 500mg of MDMA each throughout the previous day and I'm ready for another big boost in hopes of achieving more visuals. At roughly 1145PM, we both take 125mg each and while we wait for it to take effect, we share a very large joint that's had the rolling paper soaked in concentrate. We enjoy that for 15 minutes or so and put it out halfway. As soon as we finish, we both take 600ug of LSD orally and let it dissolve under our tongues. Around 1245 the MDMA is coming on but the LSD does not feel like it's quite there yet and it usually has by now. For whatever reason, we decide another 100ug is in order - down the hatch. Around 1AM the MDMA and LSD are both very much taking effect. I stare at myself in the bathroom watching the shadows contort over my flesh: they go wherever they want now. After 10 minutes of staring at myself in the bathroom I get bored with it and return to my room, sit down at my PC and start playing some music another very close friend of mine recommended earlier that day (Cigarettes After Sex, amongst others) for my friend and I to enjoy during our trip. At this point (around 2/230AM) I'm so warped from all of the MDMA, THC, and LSD and in such a good mood I'd completely forgotten my intention but it hadn't forgotten me. Negativity creeps into me for a moment but before I can give it a second thought, I forget it.. I try hard to remember what harm I was attempting to bring to myself but I just can't manage to do so and instead of dwelling like I usually would, I let it go and feel a sense of forgiveness briefly. It exhilarates me. It fills me with determination.

It's around 3AM at this point and I notice the DMT pen sitting on my desk, emitting a golden aura as if it's calling to me. My anxiety and hesitation are non-existent now - I take two long draws and hold them in for what feels like 30 seconds and then exhale. I pass the pen to my friend and before I can let go of it, the carpet morphs into complex geometry that words simply are incapable of describing. I see what looks like Mayan/Aztec warriors scrolling across my white bedroom walls, drifting and swirling as they cascade like the most intricate marquee I've ever seen. I continue to observe what appear to be ancient symbols or runes crawling across more and more of my reality. I ask my friend if I'm still conscious and he confirms I am in addition to seeing the exact same things that I am. He passes the pen back and I take two more puffs, longer this time.. and hold them inside of my lungs until I feel like I'm going to lose consciousness. I exhale and instantly all I see is white - it feels as if I've ceased to exist. I'm no longer anything or anyone anymore.

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 '''FRIDAY:'''
-Around midnight on Friday, a friend and I decide to take some MDMA (orally) - roughly 150mg each. Within an hour the walls of my bathroom are melting and sparkling at the same time. This is the first time I'd experienced visuals from MDMA, and it just seemed like a happier, brighter version of what I've experienced with LSD previously. Visuals last for a few hours and I decide to hold off on taking any LSD because I'm already experiencing some. The night goes on into the day and all throughout we both continue to ride the MDMA high (sans visuals) with 50-75mg every 4 hours or so until midnight of Saturday rolls around. I talk to my brother all day Friday about the guilt and remorse I feel from our mother passing away many years ago and he tells me to spread some of her ashes and let go of the guilt - I take his advice as he's recently has his own revelations brought on by psychedelic usage. I spread her ashes that evening all around my house, set my intention and prepared myself to face ..well, myself.
+Around midnight on Thursday a friend and I decide to take some MDMA (orally) - roughly 150mg each. Within an hour the walls of my bathroom are melting and sparkling at the same time. This is the first time I'd experienced visuals from MDMA, and it just seemed like a happier, brighter version of what I've experienced with LSD previously. Visuals last for a few hours and I decide to hold off on taking any LSD because I'm already experiencing some. The night goes on into the day and all throughout we both continue to ride the MDMA high (sans visuals) with 50-75mg every 4 hours or so until midnight of Saturday rolls around. I talk to my brother all day Friday about the guilt and remorse I feel from our mother passing away many years ago and he tells me to spread some of her ashes and let go of the guilt - I take his advice as he's recently has his own revelations brought on by psychedelic usage. I spread her ashes that evening all around my house, set my intention and prepared myself to face ..well, myself.
 '''SATURDAY:'''
-At this point, between my friend and I, we have consumed around 500mg of MDMA each throughout the previous day and I'm ready for another big boost in hopes of achieving more visuals. At roughly 1145PM, we both take 125mg each and while we wait for it to take effect, we share a very large joint that's had the rolling paper soaked in concentrate. We enjoy that for 15 minutes or so and put it out halfway. As soon as we finish, we both take 500ug of LSD orally and let it dissolve under our tongues. Around 1245 the MDMA is coming on but the LSD does not feel like it's quite there yet and it usually has by now. For whatever reason, we decide another 100ug is in order - down the hatch. Around 1AM the MDMA and LSD are both very much taking effect. I stare at myself in the bathroom watching the shadows contort over my flesh: they go wherever they want now. After 10 minutes of staring at myself in the bathroom I get bored with it and return to my room, sit down at my PC and start playing some music another very close friend of mine recommended earlier that day (Cigarettes After Sex, amongst others) for my friend and I to enjoy during our trip. At this point (around 2/230AM) I'm so warped from all of the MDMA, THC, and LSD and in such a good mood I'd completely forgotten my intention but it hadn't forgotten me. Negativity creeps into me for a moment but before I can give it a second thought, I forget it.. I try hard to remember what harm I was attempting to bring to myself but I just can't manage to do so and instead of dwelling like I usually would, I let it go and feel a sense of forgiveness briefly. It exhilarates me. It fills me with determination.
+At this point, between my friend and I, we have consumed around 500mg of MDMA each throughout the previous day and I'm ready for another big boost in hopes of achieving more visuals. At roughly 1145PM, we both take 125mg each and while we wait for it to take effect, we share a very large joint that's had the rolling paper soaked in concentrate. We enjoy that for 15 minutes or so and put it out halfway. As soon as we finish, we both take 600ug of LSD orally and let it dissolve under our tongues. Around 1245 the MDMA is coming on but the LSD does not feel like it's quite there yet and it usually has by now. For whatever reason, we decide another 100ug is in order - down the hatch. Around 1AM the MDMA and LSD are both very much taking effect. I stare at myself in the bathroom watching the shadows contort over my flesh: they go wherever they want now. After 10 minutes of staring at myself in the bathroom I get bored with it and return to my room, sit down at my PC and start playing some music another very close friend of mine recommended earlier that day (Cigarettes After Sex, amongst others) for my friend and I to enjoy during our trip. At this point (around 2/230AM) I'm so warped from all of the MDMA, THC, and LSD and in such a good mood I'd completely forgotten my intention but it hadn't forgotten me. Negativity creeps into me for a moment but before I can give it a second thought, I forget it.. I try hard to remember what harm I was attempting to bring to myself but I just can't manage to do so and instead of dwelling like I usually would, I let it go and feel a sense of forgiveness briefly. It exhilarates me. It fills me with determination.
 It's around 3AM at this point and I notice the DMT pen sitting on my desk, emitting a golden aura as if it's calling to me. My anxiety and hesitation are non-existent now - I take two long draws and hold them in for what feels like 30 seconds and then exhale. I pass the pen to my friend and before I can let go of it, the carpet morphs into complex geometry that words simply are incapable of describing. I see what looks like Mayan/Aztec warriors scrolling across my white bedroom walls, drifting and swirling as they cascade like the most intricate marquee I've ever seen. I continue to observe what appear to be ancient symbols or runes crawling across more and more of my reality. I ask my friend if I'm still conscious and he confirms I am in addition to seeing the exact same things that I am. He passes the pen back and I take two more puffs, longer this time.. and hold them inside of my lungs until I feel like I'm going to lose consciousness. I exhale and instantly all I see is white - it feels as if I've ceased to exist. I'm no longer anything or anyone anymore.