Experience:1,55mg LSD - The Report: Difference between revisions

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+2.00 Guess ill drop the timeline from here since i have no clue about the chronology of the trip at this point cause alot of stuff started to repeat itself. I was trying to let go badly. But i couldnt. I could compare it with falling asleep, with the difference that every time i i was close to "sleep" "die" or even better, lets call it "breaking through something" I kept opening my eyes with my heart racing and a paralising fear in my head. The fear was sooooo fucking familiar. It was exactly the same fear i felt during some of my nightmares i had as a 6-7 year old kid. I could connect it to some trauma i must have had perhaps as a baby, but i couldnt remember it at all. This happened everytime i tried to let go for the next maybe 2 hours while my mind was still wandering in my "realm of negativities". Then Something happened, I didnt breakthrough the invincible wall i kept banging my head against. but at some point i started to see a mesh layered before my eyes. It looked like a green/blue forcefield around me and after a while i started to feel strange sensations inside my head. They were accompanying the thoughts basicly. Every thought i was cycling through gave me a needle like sensation in my brain. I started to get delusional thinking i got a stroke or something. After the idea of brain damage, i started to feel tactile sensations that i head earlier on a 400ug trip. i though im bleeding from my eyes nose and ears. I reached for them but my fingers where clean. Felt such Relief at this point and then something in me snapped. I felt disconnected from me. My mind was Floating in some sort of empty void while noticing something is emerging out of me. Peter was dead i wasnt him anymore. I somehow transformed into a new entity. It was such a bliss, i felt like everything is exactly how its supposed to be. I could stay in this state like forever. It was an feeling of merging with something far greater than us. At this point i knew i got both all the answers and all the questions inside me. Fuck me! I didnt even feel the need to ask any of them. I lingered in this state for quite a long time. Then after I was gone, couldnt grasp any thoughts, couldnt relate to anything, i was just lying there with an empty mind blinded by some sort of warm, pulsating light.

+-5:00 Went to the bathroom looked in the mirror terrified of how i looked. I was so fucked up i could play a zombie in a voodoo movie or something. Took a piss went to the kitchen where i walked in circles having no clue what i actually wanted. I was so tired of the trip so i thought perhaps downing a bottle of vodka would help me to kill the trip. I opend the fridge no vodka there. (I dont drink at all and there were never any vodka anyway). Grabbed a glass and a bottle of water and staggered back to bed. After this i cant recall anything what was going on. Im sure i didnt sleep but its like something erased all my memory. +10:00 Another trip to the bathroom. Everything was drifting in so strongly i was amazed how long this stuff lasts. Then went back to bed. I slowly started to recall things from my past, i saw images of my parents, co-workers, friends, grandparents and saw something like scenes from my past projected in my head. Then i managed to fall into the abyss again laying there... with an empty mind.

+-5:00 Went to the bathroom looked in the mirror terrified of how i looked. I was so fucked up i could play a zombie in a voodoo movie or something. Took a piss went to the kitchen where i walked in circles having no clue what i actually wanted. I was so tired of the trip so i thought perhaps downing a bottle of vodka would help me to kill the trip. I opend the fridge no vodka there. (I dont drink at all and there were never any vodka anyway). Grabbed a glass and a bottle of water and staggered back to bed. After this i cant recall anything what was going on. Im sure i didnt sleep but its like something erased all my memory.

+10:00 Another trip to the bathroom. Everything was drifting in so strongly i was amazed how long this stuff lasts. Then went back to bed. I slowly started to recall things from my past, i saw images of my parents, co-workers, friends, grandparents and saw something like scenes from my past projected in my head. Then i managed to fall into the abyss again laying there... with an empty mind.

+14:00 Something snapped in me again. everything was outlined with a purple aura i recognized this as the end of the trip.Turned some music on ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8GXRWfZrf8E ), took my comfy chair to the balcony sat in it and lightened up a cigar contemplating what i just went through.

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 +2.00 Guess ill drop the timeline from here since i have no clue about the chronology of the trip at this point cause alot of stuff started to repeat itself. I was trying to let go badly. But i couldnt. I could compare it with falling asleep, with the difference that every time i i was close to "sleep" "die" or even better, lets call it "breaking through something" I kept opening my eyes with my heart racing and a paralising fear in my head. The fear was sooooo fucking familiar. It was exactly the same fear i felt during some of my nightmares i had as a 6-7 year old kid. I could connect it to some trauma i must have had perhaps as a baby, but i couldnt remember it at all. This happened everytime i tried to let go for the next maybe 2 hours while my mind was still wandering in my "realm of negativities". Then Something happened, I didnt breakthrough the invincible wall i kept banging my head against. but at some point i started to see a mesh layered before my eyes. It looked like a green/blue forcefield around me and after a while i started to feel strange sensations inside my head. They were accompanying the thoughts basicly. Every thought i was cycling through gave me a needle like sensation in my brain. I started to get delusional thinking i got a stroke or something. After the idea of brain damage, i started to feel tactile sensations that i head earlier on a 400ug trip. i though im bleeding from my eyes nose and ears. I reached for them but my fingers where clean. Felt such Relief at this point and then something in me snapped. I felt disconnected from me. My mind was Floating in some sort of empty void while noticing something is emerging out of me. Peter was dead i wasnt him anymore. I somehow transformed into a new entity. It was such a bliss, i felt like everything is exactly how its supposed to be. I could stay in this state like forever. It was an feeling of merging with something far greater than us. At this point i knew i got both all the answers and all the questions inside me. Fuck me! I didnt even feel the need to ask any of them. I lingered in this state for quite a long time. Then after I was gone, couldnt grasp any thoughts, couldnt relate to anything, i was just lying there with an empty mind blinded by some sort of warm, pulsating light.
-+-5:00 Went to the bathroom looked in the mirror terrified of how i looked. I was so fucked up i could play a zombie in a voodoo movie or something. Took a piss went to the kitchen where i walked in circles having no clue what i actually wanted. I was so tired of the trip so i thought perhaps downing a bottle of vodka would help me to kill the trip. I opend the fridge no vodka there. (I dont drink at all and there were never any vodka anyway). Grabbed a glass and a bottle of water and staggered back to bed. After this i cant recall anything what was going on. Im sure i didnt sleep but its like something erased all my memory. +10:00 Another trip to the bathroom. Everything was drifting in so strongly i was amazed how long this stuff lasts. Then went back to bed. I slowly started to recall things from my past, i saw images of my parents, co-workers, friends, grandparents and saw something like scenes from my past projected in my head. Then i managed to fall into the abyss again laying there... with an empty mind.
++-5:00 Went to the bathroom looked in the mirror terrified of how i looked. I was so fucked up i could play a zombie in a voodoo movie or something. Took a piss went to the kitchen where i walked in circles having no clue what i actually wanted. I was so tired of the trip so i thought perhaps downing a bottle of vodka would help me to kill the trip. I opend the fridge no vodka there. (I dont drink at all and there were never any vodka anyway). Grabbed a glass and a bottle of water and staggered back to bed. After this i cant recall anything what was going on. Im sure i didnt sleep but its like something erased all my memory.
++10:00 Another trip to the bathroom. Everything was drifting in so strongly i was amazed how long this stuff lasts. Then went back to bed. I slowly started to recall things from my past, i saw images of my parents, co-workers, friends, grandparents and saw something like scenes from my past projected in my head. Then i managed to fall into the abyss again laying there... with an empty mind.
 +14:00 Something snapped in me again. everything was outlined with a purple aura i recognized this as the end of the trip.Turned some music on ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8GXRWfZrf8E ), took my comfy chair to the balcony sat in it and lightened up a cigar contemplating what i just went through.