This is an unofficial archive of PsychonautWiki as of 2025-08-08T03:33:20Z. Content on this page may be outdated, incomplete, or inaccurate. Please refer to the original page for the most up-to-date information.
Experience:Meditation with cannabis - terminated ego loss: Difference between revisions
>Josikins m Text replacement - "*'''Effect::Delusions'''" to "*'''Effect::Delusion'''" |
>LockPicker m standardized |
||
| (7 intermediate revisions by 2 users not shown) | |||
| Line 1: | Line 1: | ||
'''[[Experience index| | '''[[Experience index|Experience reports]] - [[Cannabis]] and [[Meditation]]''' | ||
*'''Date:''' October 2014 | *'''Date:''' October 2014 | ||
*'''Gender:''' Male | *'''Gender:''' Male | ||
*'''Weight:''' | *'''Weight:''' 85 kg / 187 lbs | ||
*'''Age:''' 26 | *'''Age:''' 26 | ||
===Report=== | |||
1½ decent dose of ingested cannabis few hours before the experience | 1½ decent dose of ingested cannabis few hours before the experience | ||
I spent a sunday being slightly hangover and not doing much anything spesific, only short shamatha meditation for a while. In the evening a friend came by and we ate cannabis brownies, one and a half each. We spent a few hours talking and playing backgammon, I noticed how unusually focused I got in the game. Usually I might ponder my possible move perhaps one or two moves ahead, but then I would go on paths covering branching possibilities which felt endless, although I still couldn't figure out the best move and thought that there actually isn't an absolute one considering the nature of the game. | I spent a sunday being slightly hangover and not doing much anything spesific, only short shamatha meditation for a while. In the evening a friend came by and we ate cannabis brownies, one and a half each. We spent a few hours talking and playing backgammon, I noticed how unusually focused I got in the game. Usually I might ponder my possible move perhaps one or two moves ahead, but then I would go on paths covering branching possibilities which felt endless, although I still couldn't figure out the best move and thought that there actually isn't an absolute one considering the nature of the game. | ||
| Line 19: | Line 20: | ||
''Submitted by - [[User:Fdskjalf|Fdskjalf]]'' | ''Submitted by - [[User:Fdskjalf|Fdskjalf]]'' | ||
==Effects analysis== | |||
===Effects analysis=== | |||
*'''[[Effect::Focus enhancement]]''' - "I felt generally focused ... and my focus got more intense" | *'''[[Effect::Focus enhancement]]''' - "I felt generally focused ... and my focus got more intense" | ||
*'''[[Effect::Transformations]]''' - "the statue itself was turning into this glowing light" | *'''[[Effect::Transformations]]''' - "the statue itself was turning into this glowing light" | ||
| Line 26: | Line 28: | ||
*'''[[Effect::Delusion]]''' - "I had already died before, and this life I was now living was only some kind of an afterlife limbo" | *'''[[Effect::Delusion]]''' - "I had already died before, and this life I was now living was only some kind of an afterlife limbo" | ||
*'''[[Effect::Spontaneous physical sensations]]''' - "This produced a very pleasent warm sensation all over my body" | *'''[[Effect::Spontaneous physical sensations]]''' - "This produced a very pleasent warm sensation all over my body" | ||
*'''[[Effect::External | *'''[[Effect::External hallucination]]''' - "The statue I was looking at started to seem as actually glowing, although it was different from what I was trying to visualize. The light wasn't golden, but blue instead, and it seemed that the statue itself was turning into this glowing light, starting from the uppermost edge." | ||
*'''[[Effect::Unity and interconnectedness]]''' (level 2) - "I felt unity with the statue and the idea of buddha, first as a subjective cognition of 'me being almost the same as buddha'." | *'''[[Effect::Unity and interconnectedness]]''' (level 2) - "I felt unity with the statue and the idea of buddha, first as a subjective cognition of 'me being almost the same as buddha'." | ||
*'''[[Effect::Delusion]]''' - "an idea popped in my head, that I could try to first become the same as a buddha's image. I stood up and faced a wall cloth which has an image of buddha as a roughly real-sized human. I closed my eyes and pressed against the cloth and the wall behind it" | *'''[[Effect::Delusion]]''' - "an idea popped in my head, that I could try to first become the same as a buddha's image. I stood up and faced a wall cloth which has an image of buddha as a roughly real-sized human. I closed my eyes and pressed against the cloth and the wall behind it" | ||
| Line 33: | Line 35: | ||
*'''[[Effect::Delusion]]''' - "I tried to focus on becoming same with the buddha again, but now it led me to another delusion. I felt that everything in my life, all the people in it and all my experiences had been only in order to bring me to this point. And thus everything was about me, all of the outer reality was only an illusion in my mind. Somehow this led me to a thought: I had already died before, and this life I was now living was only some kind of an afterlife limbo." | *'''[[Effect::Delusion]]''' - "I tried to focus on becoming same with the buddha again, but now it led me to another delusion. I felt that everything in my life, all the people in it and all my experiences had been only in order to bring me to this point. And thus everything was about me, all of the outer reality was only an illusion in my mind. Somehow this led me to a thought: I had already died before, and this life I was now living was only some kind of an afterlife limbo." | ||
*'''[[Effect::Anxiety]]''' - "didn't help with my feeling of fear" | *'''[[Effect::Anxiety]]''' - "didn't help with my feeling of fear" | ||
[[Category:Experience]] [[Category:Meditation]] [[Category:Cannabis]] | |||
[[Category:Experience]] | |||
[[Category:Meditation]][[Category:Cannabis]] | |||