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'''[[Experience index|Experience reports]] - [[LSD]]''' | |||
*'''Date: 29.05.2017''' | *'''Date: 29.05.2017''' | ||
*'''Gender: Male''' | *'''Gender: Male''' | ||
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*'''Age: 30''' | *'''Age: 30''' | ||
*'''Substance: 1.55mg Lysergic acid diethylamide''' | *'''Substance: 1.55mg Lysergic acid diethylamide''' | ||
*'''Bedroom brightly lit with green walls no music.''' | *'''Setting: Bedroom brightly lit with green walls no music.''' | ||
===Report=== | |||
Need to write this down as long the wounds are fresh. | Need to write this down as long the wounds are fresh. | ||
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The Trip: | The Trip: | ||
+0.00: Injested 13 blotters, | +0.00: Injested 13 blotters, | ||
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+1.00 I closed my eyes and my mind started to wander here and there. The content was mostly related to all the bad things ive done and my the elements of my personality i hate. A total ego trip occured. I tried to let go but somehow i couldnt. I kept bouncing back to those thoughts about myself. | +1.00 I closed my eyes and my mind started to wander here and there. The content was mostly related to all the bad things ive done and my the elements of my personality i hate. A total ego trip occured. I tried to let go but somehow i couldnt. I kept bouncing back to those thoughts about myself. | ||
+2.00 Guess ill drop the timeline from here since i have no clue about the chronology of the trip at this point cause alot of stuff started to repeat itself. I was trying to let go badly. But i couldnt. I could compare it with falling asleep, with the difference that every time i i was close to "sleep" "die" or even better, lets call it "breaking through something" I kept opening my eyes with my heart racing and a paralising fear in my head. The fear was sooooo fucking familiar. It was exactly the same fear i felt during some of my nightmares i had as a 6-7 year old kid. I could connect it to some trauma i must have had perhaps as a baby, but i couldnt remember it at all. This happened everytime i tried to let go for the next maybe 2 hours while my mind was still wandering in my "realm of negativities". Then Something happened, I didnt breakthrough the invincible wall i kept banging my head against. but at some point i started to see a mesh layered before my eyes. It looked like a green/blue forcefield around me and after a while i started to feel strange sensations inside my head. They were accompanying the thoughts basicly. Every thought i was cycling through gave me a needle like sensation in my brain. I started to get delusional thinking i got a stroke or something. After the idea of brain damage, i started to feel tactile sensations that i head earlier on a | +2.00 Guess ill drop the timeline from here since i have no clue about the chronology of the trip at this point cause alot of stuff started to repeat itself. I was trying to let go badly. But i couldnt. I could compare it with falling asleep, with the difference that every time i i was close to "sleep" "die" or even better, lets call it "breaking through something" I kept opening my eyes with my heart racing and a paralising fear in my head. The fear was sooooo fucking familiar. It was exactly the same fear i felt during some of my nightmares i had as a 6-7 year old kid. I could connect it to some trauma i must have had perhaps as a baby, but i couldnt remember it at all. This happened everytime i tried to let go for the next maybe 2 hours while my mind was still wandering in my "realm of negativities". Then Something happened, I didnt breakthrough the invincible wall i kept banging my head against. but at some point i started to see a mesh layered before my eyes. It looked like a green/blue forcefield around me and after a while i started to feel strange sensations inside my head. They were accompanying the thoughts basicly. Every thought i was cycling through gave me a needle like sensation in my brain. I started to get delusional thinking i got a stroke or something. After the idea of brain damage, i started to feel tactile sensations that i head earlier on a 400μg trip. i though im bleeding from my eyes nose and ears. I reached for them but my fingers where clean. Felt such Relief at this point and then something in me snapped. I felt disconnected from me. My mind was Floating in some sort of empty void while noticing something is emerging out of me. Peter was dead i wasnt him anymore. I somehow transformed into a new entity. It was such a bliss, i felt like everything is exactly how its supposed to be. I could stay in this state like forever. It was an feeling of merging with something far greater than us. At this point i knew i got both all the answers and all the questions inside me. Fuck me! I didnt even feel the need to ask any of them. I lingered in this state for quite a long time. Then after I was gone, couldnt grasp any thoughts, couldnt relate to anything, i was just lying there with an empty mind blinded by some sort of warm, pulsating light. | ||
+-5:00 Went to the bathroom looked in the mirror terrified of how i looked. I was so fucked up i could play a zombie in a voodoo movie or something. Took a piss went to the kitchen where i walked in circles having no clue what i actually wanted. I was so tired of the trip so i thought perhaps downing a bottle of vodka would help me to kill the trip. I opend the fridge no vodka there. (I dont drink at all and there were never any vodka anyway). Grabbed a glass and a bottle of water and staggered back to bed. After this i cant recall anything what was going on. Im sure i didnt sleep but its like something erased all my memory. | |||
+10:00 Another trip to the bathroom. Everything was drifting in so strongly i was amazed how long this stuff lasts. Then went back to bed. I slowly started to recall things from my past, i saw images of my parents, co-workers, friends, grandparents and saw something like scenes from my past projected in my head. Then i managed to fall into the abyss again laying there... with an empty mind. | |||
+14:00 Something snapped in me again. everything was outlined with a purple aura i recognized this as the end of the trip.Turned some music on ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8GXRWfZrf8E ), took my comfy chair to the balcony sat in it and lightened up a cigar contemplating what i just went through. | +14:00 Something snapped in me again. everything was outlined with a purple aura i recognized this as the end of the trip.Turned some music on ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8GXRWfZrf8E ), took my comfy chair to the balcony sat in it and lightened up a cigar contemplating what i just went through. | ||
Conclusion: | Conclusion: | ||
I was somewhat dissapointed i didnt get the answers i wanted, but at the same time i was amazed about the fear | I was somewhat dissapointed i didnt get the answers i wanted, but at the same time i was amazed about the fear related to my childhood. WTF happened to back then i have no clue but i can say for sure it had something to do with my babyhood. From what my parents told me i was born dead and the doctors managed to save me, so i played with that thought but in the end i think its the fear i felt in my mothers womb while being forced out of it. The mind is truly a riddle and it makes me sad i might not solve this mystery in my lifetime. Also i feel absolutely relieved and full of energy while writing this. Guess it was a good call to hop on this train... Again ;) | ||
''Submitted by - [[User:Antiharmonix|Antiharmonix]]'' | ''Submitted by - [[User:Antiharmonix|Antiharmonix]]'' | ||
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